My daughters will not forgive me. Please help

My daughters will not forgive mne for being addcited to Oxycontin when they were young. I had a skull fracture and I was given it from my doctor. I admit I became addicted to it and too it for longer than I needed to. I embarrassed them a few time and they will not forgive me. I have been saved for over 5 years and we bearly have any relationship at all. My husband did the same thing but they blame me for lettin him know about it and he went to his doctor fot back pain. It went on from 1996 until 2003. They are not saved and how can they be so judgemental if I have repented and they havent? If I died, I dont even think they would care at all. IS there some prayer I can print that I could show them explaining how I am sorry (I have told them numerous times that I am sorry)Someone gave me one in church some day and I have lost it now. It was wonderful and I cant find it on the internet. Please help.